As I was talking to my mother, I said, “I lost my temper again, Mom. It is so difficult for me to remain calm when Alex says something that I don’t agree with. I don’t know why I can’t just disagree calmly. The event was so minuscule. I asked him to research multi-vitamins for me, and he came up with a brand that was too expensive for me. Big deal! He did the research, he gave me a service, and instead of saying ‘thank you’ I yelled at him. Why is it, Mom?”
She sighed and said, “It’s hard to change habits. You are used to yelling to demonstrate disagreement. You’ve been doing it for forty maybe even fifty years. Do you think that by realizing it is not a good way to bond with your partner you will change overnight? No. You made progress by realizing it was not a good tactic. It will make it easier when you realize that when Alex loses his cool, he’s acting on an old habit as well. Breath in, slow down and do your best not to respond. This is restraint.”
I can see a long curve to master that one.